assalamualaikum.

hey guys.

i don't know where to start.

tak tahu la kenapa. tapi lately kerap sangat sakit kepala.
tension? ye la kot. i have this probs that really gave me a headache.

tapi bukan nak bukak hikayat pasal my probs ni. psl everytime i try calming myself back.

ada satu masa tu. i just cry the whole day because its just too much. even masa nak makan cokelat pun still nangis. i tried calming myself by listening to some of my fav band song but only end up crying more because lyric masa tu memang kena dengan jiwa.

ahahaha. makin teruk la gamaknya.

but then, masa nak solat. ambil wuduk sambil nangis. its like the tears win't stop.

and i end up crying while praying. masa tu, i just cry at Allah because nobody was there for me.

nangis. nangis. nangis.

habis ja solat.

tak tahu kenapa tapi hati rasa lapang sangat. masa tu, tears stop just like that. and i was thinking to myself, kenapa aku nangis eyh tadi?

subhanallah.

seriously, i was dumbfounded. tanya diri kenapa nangis tadi?

and masa tu sedar. Allah never left me alone to face the probs. He's there. always there.

masa tu la rasa malu dengan diri sendiri. sebab sedar benda ni lambat sangat.

masa tengah sedih bukan reti nak berdoa tapi dengar lagu yang kononnya tenangkan jiwa tu.

malu dengan diri sendiri. malu dekat Allah.

i'm sharing this because i feel like i should share it.

till then.

:)
new past