assalamualaikum.

heyya peeps. kay. I know. I know. hilang dekat setahun baru nak munculkan diri.
kay here's my very own reason.
I can list it.
seriousy.
typo.
serioudly.
typo lagi.
kayh. malas nak tekan backspace tu.
Seriously.
finally.
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Okay I have no solid reason. But for the record, I did find my way back here and actually willingly forcing myself to atleast type something in here.

Typical me.

Anyway, finally i'm free from the matriculation programme.
it was fun to be honest.
if you put the long list of topic that needed to be finished aside.
the constantly rules that will make you might set the campus on fire. *kidding*
and the other things that you might find it annoying as hell.

if you throw it all away from the programme or just put it aside,
it's not that half bad, actually.

with your crazy roommate that sometime might be the slow death of me.
classmate with the most unpredictable actions.
the 3 people that I eventually or accidentally befriend.
the constantly crazy behaviour that is really hard to control, boy how much I live my life.
the teachers that i'm really closed with.

I enjoy it there. honestly. thanks to these people.
wish I could post their picture in here, but you know how lazy I am in connecting it with my phone.

i'm more to the introvert person because I just find it really really hard in communicate with people. but this few bunch of people really make me feel comfortable with them. comfortable enough will be an understatement because I barely know them less than 1 year. but i'm comfortable enough to show a part of me when i'm with them.

they are like a family to me.
fighting will be typical but we all managed to overcome it.
dramas.
heartbroken.
typical.

all of this actually teach me a thing or two about the life in the future might be.
it might be worst than there but atleast I know that every things that happen have their own resolution.
we just need to find it. solve it or just kill it. again, kidding.

i'm not that crazy to kill someone.

if people ask me a few years later,
"hey, how ever did you survive the crap that happens there?"
I will just say that,
"thanks to the people that ready to face that crap with me that I managed to survive it there"

so guys,
a few tips.
never ever lose your opportunity in making of creating memories.
because people fade away.
but memories stay.

trust me,
you will appreciate until you actually lose it.

so what are you waiting for.
start creating your own memory now.
do not wait for it....

to end this post...

to the people out there. thank you for being a part of my life.
thank you so so so much.

Living in this reality,
it hurts.
constantly with the dramas
backstabber
liars.
and all the bad things that are so hard to be deleted.
i'm sure people never stop talking about us
the past.
the present
the future.
it's just a part of life
when our very story was being told by some expert
like they are very much living in our life
except
they are stranger
who barely know us
yet telling people what they belief and what they see
never dig deeper because they know it's already uglier.
instead if they dig deeper enough
they might see the beauty in every thing that we do.
every bad have its good
every rain has its own rainbow.
if only they dig deeper.
if and only
they do not believe what is on the surface
but that's just how they want
the way they want to create the colours of their ife
so be it
we create our own story
on our own canvas
using our very own colours.
let the dark spot that stays on the canvas.
let it be
because its what who makes us in the future
not us in the past
live it
ignore it
start to achieve it.

believe.

till then.
salam.



new past